Jesus what a day (yesterday and today I mean)

I went to the 8am lecture. But I was abt 10-20 mins late cos I couldn’t be bothered getting up. No matter. Cos kristy was late too. Then I left early so I pretty much shouldn’t’ve bothered going cos I only paid attention for at tiny bith. ]

So then I got to the city. And the safeway bottleshop. Got vodka and a little pre-mixed baileys thing. Dentist (the receptionist was like ‘ur a bit late’ and I’m like ‘yeh, sorry’ (cos they keep me waiting always anyway))

Left the dentist. Started drinking on the way back to uni on the train. It was meant to be just the baileys cos it was little. But hten I started mixing the vodka and coke. So by the time I got to halls 1/3 of the bottle was gone. And I was fairly trashed. So I hung at halls for a bit

He just wants me for sex. I’m convinced now. And I reckon he’s got a secret love for eliza. Oh well. They’ll hook up. I saw it from the beginning. I’m just the intermittent thing so he can mature or something. I don’t know. I’ve been drinking this morning already. Now there’s only ½ the vodka left. And going by how I feel now, there may not be even that left for long

Anyway. So we talked a bit. I wish I remember more. And I wish I wasn’t so whingy. But he was nice. He looked after me and was there for me (even if only superficially) when I needed him. I ‘confessed’ to him abt pfe. And he was like ‘oh. Ok’ and I asked him if he likes eliza and he’s like ‘yeah. But not like that’ as if I believe it. And apparently she did tell him she saw me at work. And he’s got younger siblings. And had his first alcoholic experience abt the time I did. And he was nice. Held hands. Hugged me. All that stuff. Offered me a shower. Decent boy.

I know there was more stuff but I forget…. Anyway. Then I left. Passed out a bit on the med grass and then michelle got me up and moose tried to take the vodka which wasn’t nice. But he meant well.

Got to tute. Sat at the back (stupid thing was that my tutor is a gp specialising in substance abuse. Go me) anyway. Apparently the smell was very… obvious. And linden smelt the vodka-coke mix and was like ‘shit! It stinks’ as did ged and pat. And they were like ‘wouldn’t it be great if she had to do stuff in front of the class. But I didn’t.

Then went out of tute. Went for a walk. Went home. Was still tipsy but good enough to not be obviously drunk….

Fun day I guess.

And as for today. Well started off well. I sound like such an alco. I’m really not I swear. Just making good use of what I have. Anyway. Managed to get tipsy but abt 9am lecture (we started at 8 and the 9am lecture was shit anyway). Hung abt. Didn’t do much. Slept for some of the break cos I really didn’t feel like hanging with people too much.

My selective is fun. Consists of 3 guys I’ve gotten with. One of whom is Charlie. And it was so awkward sitting next to him before we went to the performing arts building. What do you say to a guy who thinks u’re a bitch and who u hooked up with? Nothing.

But it was a fun selective.

And I’ll be more subtle in future.

But this is stupid. My mother thinks we forgot her birthday. I didn’t. I didn’t say happy birthday this morning because I forgot momentarily (getting to uni on time was the aim for once) and today I got off the bus and she was there and I forgot then too. But I swear I didn’t forget it was today and I swear I thought someone else might’ve actually done something.

So yeah. Looks like everything is dandy. Or not…

The moral: I’m blaming everything else for my own stupidity. He has a right to like someone else. I should’ve remembered to say happy birthday. I shouldn’t have gotten with so many people cos then it wouldn’t be uncomfortable.